Time flies.
This seems to be my struggle right now. Even though it is summer and the demands on my time should be fewer I am struggling to find the time to do things I think matter. There is still the 40-hour per week demand from my job, that is unchanging, though the urgency of projects is less in the summer. It is the other things that I think are important that I am struggling to find time for. I am spending time in the Word and prayer every morning when I wake up. In fact, this year is the fourth time I am reading through the Bible in a year. I am right on pace, doing well, and enjoying it. I am doing a decent job getting exercise into the schedule. Four weight sessions per week, two 2-mile walks per week and a day off. (Though it often feel fruitless and I am sure it will get more difficult once the school year starts back up!) Small group on Mondays, band rehearsal on Wednesdays, serving at the church three weekends a month. It is the "smaller" things I am not getting done. Upkeep on the house (yes honey, I know the mower needs to get put back together, yes I know the grass is getting longer.) is probably something that needs to get done; it is not. I really want to spend more time writing: this blog, songs, books; I am not. I want to spend more time practicing and becoming a better bass player; I am not. Is it too much to ask for 32-hour days?
I considered calling this post A Lament. I know that God knows my heart and the things that I struggle with. I know that many of the psalms vent the authors' frustrations to God and He appreciates the honesty and does not shy away from the questioning. I suppose that in itself is an act of worship; recognizing that He already knows and so opening my heart to Him about those things deepens our relationship. I suppose simply writing this out is an act of worship.
Thank you God that even when I don't see it You're working. Even when I don't feel it You're working. Open my eyes to see where You are working and let me join You there.
Blessings
Chris
